I've always been a little boy crazy, ever since my first crush on Paul McCartney (before you say, "Eeew," keep in mind I always thought of him as the young Paul from the early Beatles years), but I was never the type of girl to have many (or any) boyfriends.

To be honest, there weren't that many boys I was interested in during middle or high school, so that was part of the problem. But if I ever did like a boy, I wouldn't be able to talk to him. I would get all nervous, and then think of really clever things to say after the fact. I remember liking a certain guy, let's call him Cutie McSmarty, and trying to conjure up interesting tidbits of conversation so the next time I saw him, I would say just the right thing. Naturally he'd fall in love with me and realize that I was the type of smart, funny, cute girl he always dreamed about. Sadly, it never worked that way.

Even though I was in a youth group and we had a lot of dances and social events, I was the wallflower talking to the other shy girls, while the outgoing girls were making out with or breaking up with their first boyfriends.

The only time boys would notice me was to embarrass me. Once, a few of them thought it would be oh-so-clever and original to recreate the "You've Got That Loving Feeling" scene from Top Gun. In the movie, Tom Cruise and his crew sing that song to a girl in a bar. But in my youth group, it was considered funny for a group of guys to pick a random girl to serenade, but they didn't do it to flatter me. They did it because they knew I didn't like to be the center of attention. Thank you The Righteous Brothers.